This is a new day called Independence Day. I am free from everything that had me bound. When I was younger, I was addicted to so many things. I won’t go into detail right now, but later. I had to be freed from sex, drugs, alcoholism, sin and all the things that go with this. One day I will elaborate but this is just my third post and I can’t write the entire book today.
I had to be freed from depression, low self-esteem and the shame, guilt and condemnation that resulted from all the things I’d done in my past. Believe me, I don’t look like what I’ve been through and people who know me wouldn’t believe me if I told them my story. God only allowed me to go so far before He snatched me out of the hand of the enemy.
God is a Deliverer. I must have grieved His Spirit during that time but He still protected me from the horrible things that could have happened to me. God is a Keeper. I know He loves me because He pulled me out of a messy life. The prayers of my mother and grandmother were covering me because I wasn’t thinking about nothing but feeling good any way I could. My family never had a clue about anything I was doing. Never.
I was looking for love in all the wrong places. Even now, I can’t believe how I used to be. My parents didn’t raise me like that. In fact, I was over protected. Yep, it’s always the ones who couldn’t do what their friends were doing and couldn’t go where their friends were going. I was sheltered, like a caged bird.
When I left home to go to college and stay on campus, it was my first taste of independence. My boyfriend practically lived with me all four years in an all girls dorm. It’s a wonder I got any school work done. I was having the time of my life when things weren’t going horribly wrong. I’ll save that for another day.
When I moved into my first apartment a year after graduation, I really went nuts, doing everything under the sun. BUT GOD! I’ve got a million stories and I’m sure you do too.
I’m going to stop here and write another post about what I learned in Bible Study Tuesday night. Testimonies never expire!